There’s something refreshing about a new year starting on a Monday, don’t you think? While 2017 has been my favorite year thanks to Emme’s birth, it also brought about new challenges that I wasn’t fully prepared for. In fact, if I had to sum up 2017 in one word it would be CHALLENGE. Challenges are not necessarily bad and mostly inevitable with change but 2017 definitely pushed me in ways I’ve never been pushed before. And despite the challenges, we made a lot of great memories in 2017.
I struggled with my new role as a mother and how that blended with my role as a wife. Whoever said the first year of marriage is the most difficult must have assumed you’d become parents in the first year. The first two years of married life went smoothly for the most part. But going into this third year of marriage with a baby has been a challenge. Thankfully though Adam and I are communicating and working together to navigate this new season and our new role as parents.
I’ve also struggled with my own identity. Giving up my full time job had a bigger impact on my self esteem than I thought it would. While I love being able to stay home with Emme, I often feel a little bit lost and like I’m nothing more than a nanny and housekeeper. I’ve also experienced the usual “mom” struggles like accepting the changes with my body, finding quality alone time, nurturing existing friendships and creating new ones.
But I am optimistic and excited about 2018! In case you missed the announcement, Adam pledged four more years of his life to the Navy and received new orders which means we are moving to Pensacola in March. I am sad to be leaving Jacksonville, the only home I’ve known for 31 years, but I am looking forward to the fresh start and new adventures we’ll experience in the three years living on the Gulf Coast. (Hello, beautiful beaches!)
I am not one to make New Year Resolutions. If we’re being honest, I just never keep them so why bother making them? But this year I have a few broad goals that I’m hoping to achieve.
Be mindful of my time.
The embarrassing truth is I wasted a lot of time last year. Between sleeping in, mindlessly scrolling social media, and otherwise loafing about, I managed to squander away a good bit of 2017. Not having a set schedule every day was both a blessing and a curse and I often found myself overwhelmed with this newfound freedom.
In 2018 I want to wake up earlier. I want to expand my knowledge and hone my crafts. I want to read more books. I want to spend more quality time with loved ones. I want to spend more quality time alone. I want to get outside more and explore the landscape. I want to find the best taco joint and Old Fashioned cocktail in town. I want to exercise more because it’s good for my body but better for my mind. I want to listen to music and podcasts. I want to sip chai in a coffeehouse and observe the people around me. I want to grow emotionally, spiritually, and professionally. I want to do all of this to become a better version of myself which will also make me a better wife and mother. And I can achieve ALL THE THINGS simply by becoming more mindful of my time.
Considering I didn’t have a job for most of the year, I should have been more focused on spending wisely in 2017. But instead I often spent money frivolously as a cure for my emotions instead of turning to healthier alternatives. (You know, like many of the things I listed above.) I don’t want to go so far as to cancel our Amazon Prime account and trips to Target but I would like to see lower numbers on our credit card statement each month and subsequently less stuff in our house.
Find a (meaningful and fulfilling) job.
And possibly the biggest and most important goal of 2018 is to find a job. After having spent a year as a stay at home mom, our move to Pensacola in the Spring means it’s time to get back into the workforce. I’m really hoping to land something in marketing or public relations but no matter what field I end up working in, I’m hoping my new job will be meaningful and fulfilling.
What goals do you have for 2018? I would love to know what you would like to achieve this year, big and small.